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13.4.10

agapigirl x preoscargiftingsuite





The facts are these:

i am a fashion stylist and visionary not a photographer. I have been very busy. very very busy… I have been creating tote bags that make my friends squeal. we have been steaming and altering clothing to post in the vintage store… and then I went to the Agapi Girl pre Oscar Gifting Suite on March 4. The day turned out to be beautifully illuminated by the California sunshine. The wind was not in as much of a good mood. Hence it was hard to keep picture perfect hair outside. But when you walked into the transformed Urban Kabob Restaurant space on La Brea you were hit by laughter and the impulse to just relax. Guests filed in consistently to be greeted by white wine and vegetarian appetizers. The eco friendly upscale theme was such a great idea I was motivated more than ever to continue my journey in making my own future events as eco friendly and beneficial to others as possible just as this one was. The gift bags and it’s contents were adorable and and included soap, makeup, healing crystals and stones, eco-friendly shopping bags, a few coupons and stickers the coconut drink, and a hollywood weekly magazine. The guests were diverse and very well dressed, I always love an event with well dressed patrons. Mingling at this event was just what I needed to be inspired by bohemian California chic style again. I was dressed down, but still fabulous I will definitely admit in a black jumpsuit and cream lace tank top as I was helping run the event and this is my default volunteer work outfit because you never want to out dress the host of a party you are working for it’s like showing up the bride, a battle can ensue. None did. The host however looked adorably professional with a beautiful red flower in her hair. I loved the appetizers that were served they were all vegetarian and the hummus was absolutely delicious. With all of my new goodies I was a little disappointed to not see any nominees, but meeting the guests that did arrive was more than my pleasure.


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11.3.10

Ti$aVision: Grammy's Party from Creative Control on Vimeo.




remember grammy night...



the facts are these:

the beginning iz...its very interesting when my life has its everyday glamourous moments. i owe these particular credits to my loves that are Ti$A, i think i feel a little cool i mean ego isnt everything but i live in la therefore image is everything. haha i live here cause i like to dress up loved le mirror$ i mean the whole night and morning. it was fun being quiet and just listening. i was reading dont sweat the small stuff at the time and i was also lifted. yes levitating. the shoes... the hat... the legendary... apparently there were no niggas but then there definitely aren't really any in la---- its not an insult. apparently... i loved it, it was natural... i made a relationhip with a mirror i dont think it was ironic someone must of picked up on the energy of that love of me and that mirror. i would consider being able to rock the fuck out of a mirror as art. i mean especially when im the artist. haha i mean i did get in i was actually (cough cough) escorted in. i was in a dream state but isnt that what grammy night is for...

... i mean that and smoookin and piiiiiimpin haha chateau marmont it was an honor to not be allowed to lean on your windows- kelis yes kelis was there and yes she had silver hair, meeting her explained a lot the silver hair was not one of them... i guess gorgeous women can do what the fuck they want... and major is always the bestest date ever cause i mean only fly can hang with fly and royalty is what it is no matter where it is. i mean really now... and taz is a super star so you know i mean what do u say to a super star when ur stoned (it would have been rude to ask for a preview of the album and some rings but i thought about it.)i mean i just realized how much i enjoy the slect company i keep. im grateful for that feeling. but i understand it didnt come from sitting on my ass...

my ego says to tell you that yes that is me in that fabulous hat with that fabulous silhouette, and yes i am in the same shot as keli laughing (it is an awkward shot lol, the party was crowded as hell it was wall to wall fashion statements the crowd is edited down not filled in,god im fuckin geeked this video is so damn cool haha. that night was the shit. i repeat... thanks again.

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and my birthday is coming up i am very deserving of gucci shoes from the spring runway, an mcm bag and some rings that say hood and love i mean come on guys...haha good times.


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8.9.09

To BET: Let My People Go!!!


Katt Williams was my favorite reason for working the BET awards. This man is hilarious!!! I have met him on a number of occasions after my first time being at the first BET Awards i worked... he's hella real. i laugh evertime i think about po
little tink tink...lol...

I was browsing the internet and came across this letter from a now Former BET Exec Andreas Hale. I have personally had my own incidences with the BET corporation and reading this letter brought back the time I got fired too. I have been against the whole BET system for a long time now. I don't like encouraging the stereotypes and the continuous advertising of ignorance. When I started volunteering for BET I had dreams of working my way up in the company and changing the lives of Black people evrywhere, I learned the first day on the job that was not a goal I wanted to continue to pursue. I worked the BET Awards two years in a row with no problems and great referrals and recommendations from everyone I worked with(as that was the reason I continued to come back was the connections). Then the third year I went back to work for the awards show as an intern now, no more volunteer status for me! sarcasm I was fired. Just like that I showed up to work the press junket not dressed like a black office vixen like the rest of the women I had worked with over the years, but in an India Arie- Erykah Badu type outfit, i looked adorable and was complimented on my attire a number of times, I was fired apparently because of my outfit... (cont after mr hale's letter)

From Andreas Hale:

To friends, colleagues and those that should know,

As of today (September 8, 2009) I am no longer the Executive Editor of Music at BET.com.

Upon entering the position at BET I said that I needed one year to see what really went on inside the belly of the beast. I needed 365 days to sleep with the enemy and infiltrate the system. One year to see if they REALLY wanted change at BET.

As someone who has been critical of BET for many years, it surprised many that I would leave my post at HipHopDX last year to take a position at BET. But it was an opportunity I absolutely had to take. I could no longer be critical of this company without accepting the opportunity to change it when given. Although I was hired to bring about change, I was systematically shut down. I wasn’t hired to make noise, I was hired to be silenced.

The truth of the matter is that everything that you thought was wrong with BET is true.

Over the past year I’ve seen a lot to reinforce my position that BET is too far gone in the negative to turn into a positive. We have all always thought the worst, but to actually see it in action is another thing in its entirety. The unprofessionalism, the tom foolery, the favors, the misappropriation of resources, the bad ideas that reinforce negative stereotypes, the emasculation of men, the meetings that break down in full fledged cursing battles, the unpaid overtime, the tears from employees scared for their underpaid and overworked positions and ultimately the unwillingness to change are all harsh realities that I’ve witnessed firsthand.

That is not to say that there aren’t some good people who have sat in the offices of BET. Unfortunately, the good people are not in positions of power to instill any change. Instead, they work their fingers to the bone just to keep their jobs in this harsh economic climate. The other good people ran out of the door as soon as an another employment opportunity presented itself. To say BET was a revolving door would be an understatement.

I came in with a plan to provide balance and to deliver good music to the masses and help make BET relevant again – at least in the dot com world. Those attempts were shut down by out of touch executives who run a dot com but could barely turn on a computer. By those who judge their metrics by page views over absolute unique visitors (that‘s ad sales talk). By those who simply don’t understand the internet.

They brought me in because of my track record but never once took a look at my body of work. If they did, they would have known that I was the pen behind editorials such as “BET’s Coon Picnic” or were aware of the many times I have been critical of their award shows and programming. All they knew is that I played a major role in making a once unknown website into a online media outlet that surpassed theirs and they wanted a piece of the action. Too bad they never researched who I really was.

During my tenure I worked long hours and sometimes succeeded at bringing in decent content to try to reflect the change I wanted to achieve. But it wasn’t without opposition. While some interviews and content initiatives were able to make it through, many others were either shut down or met with ridicule. I offered ideas to incorporate the blog world and to spotlight new talent before MTV did. Those ideas were met with comments such as “This isn’t HipHopDX” or “You don’t know what you are talking about.”

BET is not about the quality of your work. Rather, BET is about the relationships you have with powerful people within the company. BET is not about challenging. Instead, BET is about accepting and saying “yes.” If you have known or followed me over the years, you would know that these are things that simply are not in my character and ultimately resulted in my removal.

For the artists and labels that I have worked with for years, I tried. I did whatever I could to achieve that balance many of us wanted to see happen. To the writers who wanted to writer for BET, I made an attempt but was never given a budget to work with.

Upon my arrival, I was told I would be given a staff. Not true. I had a staff of one to carry out daily operations on a website. I fought tooth and nail to accomplish the minimum (an embeddable player and a site people could navigate) and was constantly brushed off. It was a position that was set up for failure. But I endured as long as I could.

Alas, I have been removed from my position after infiltrating the system and the timing was perfect. I wasn’t let go because the site’s numbers were down. Not because I didn’t work hard. Simply because of a personality clash with an individual whose proverbial ass I didn’t kiss enough. Again, not about the work you do but about the relationships you keep and the sides you take.

I’d like to thank BET for covering the cost of my relocation to bring me to the great city of New York/New Jersey. I’d also like to thank them for putting me in close quarters with people who think like me and will hopefully work with in the near future. I’d also like to thank them for providing me enough controversial content that I observed firsthand and will make for many tales to be told.

I said it and I meant in: One year to either make changes or move on. I left HipHopDX on September 16th 2008. Today is September 8, 2009. Eight days short of a year. Most thought I wouldn’t even last that long. But in that year I’ve had my greatest fears about Black Entertainment Television affirmed.

There is so much wrong with BET that I’d rather not break it down in a single email.

It is pretty good fodder for a book don’t you think?

As of today, Andreas Hale is a free agent.


thanks HS
...i found out later the story was apparently that the woman who I was working under that day was jealous of my shine and just wanted to flex her power. I decided not to fight it because who really wants to work for BET anyways. As Mr Hale was offered his position I was also offered the intern position so I took it, I hadn't been chasing it and I had already had a great job as it was. It was such a ridiculous experience every time I worked for these folks. The shows are always so unorganized and it seemed like every year i went back it always seemed a little worse, but i kept going back because for people who have never been affiliated with the company from the inside think it's great on the resume and it is! It's sad that BET is the standard for most black mainstream entertainment and the bar they set is so low. Which has caused blacks to not reach as high as they can in their business endeavors.

Anyways so i show up in my outfit and first I am assigned to help break down and setup tables and such... that lasted 5 minutes and i was moved to assist a makeup artist, i reported to my station and began a fun friendship with the makeup artist and everyone she had to touch including tichina arnold who apparently knew some people i knew and loved the fact i wanted to be a stylist, i worked with the MUA and Tichina for about 20 minutes and at the time i was dragged away from my new found crew they were pulling me into pictures and we were having a ball...the woman who fired me pulled me into the hallway and told me to wait there while she finds me a different job she was very rude i just figured she was a little stressed in her position. She walked away to go talk to someone else and while she was talking another woman who was in charge of PR walked by and remembered me from previous years and told my head she was taking me to use me because she was understaffed with experienced people... i was put in charge of keeping TI and 50 cent separate... i stood in a hallway for about 5 minutes before the PR woman came back to me and said im upgrading u to 50 Cent's escort and there's an issue he wont come out of his room- she was panicked. I just laughed and said okay where do I go? (what she didnt know is that i was currently working for an aftermath producer so this was gonna be fun).I reported to mr Jackson's room and knocked on the door informed his assistant i was his escort and 50 was said to be out in a couple of minutes and he was. The moment he stepped out he said to me something very rude and and i replied in the same way- its what we did at the time. 10 seconds didn't go by with me smiling before the woman who fired me popped up and pulled me to the side. she asked me to stand once again to the side and informed me someone else will replace me helping 50 Cent and they did. 50 proceeded to go back into his room for another half hour : ) the woman appeared once again after me standing for 20 minutes and informed me I was being let go. I asked why... she told me " You will be notified about it later, but you are dressed inappropriately". i asked her why she didn't say anything when I first arrived, and told her iI had a change of clothes in my car which I always did, and she said it wasn't a problem then and changing would not be nessecary, just go home. I was pissed... at that moment i knew it was personal and i dont even know that bitch that way... well needless to say i was insulted and after sitting around for a bit to see if there was someone professional i could talk to about the incident here comes 50 Cent, walking out of his interview he yells to me

" What's Wrong?" I am frowning and I say to him

" I just got fired". He laughed and said to me

" Smile, You are cuter when you smile." and just as i started to laugh as i know this is a backwards compliment ,i look over to see the woman who fired me scowling at me like i stole something from her. SO 50 passed to go into the other press room and TI walks out and proceeds to flirt with me and I just smiled as I watched the one who fired me walk off in a perturbed state at the fact she couldn't bring me down. the best revenge is success : ) BET really needs to get thier shit together for sure.


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My Life Even Better


Today has been a day of reflection for me and although I am only so old at the moment I have a ton of memories to reflect on. I have always been the type of person to reflect in the privacy of my own skull. Where what I have to say or feel can be judged by no one except for me and the Creator. Today I scoot out on a limb and decide to share some of my past experiences on my blog. Now my friends this is no tell all but a peek behind the scenes of some of the ups and downs I have gone through in an industry that can make or break a person's soul. It's always been funny for me since Hollywood to me is just like one big ridiculous world created not for entertainment to the masses but for the folks who work behind the scenes and grow up in this crazy cloud of a twisted reality...

A bit about myself i am currently in my very early twenties. I grew up between los angeles and Sacramento,ca... the earliest part of my childhood was spent in dancing, singing, and acting lessons alongside some of the personalities the media cyber stalks today... i have been on and in tv/film and hanging with greats in music, money, and art since i could speak my first words...my aunt is a successful assistant director and my mom is a healer, these are the strong women who orchestrated my up bringing fortunately for me... i am not star struck because stars are in the sky and to this day i have never met one and when I do i will then be stunned... i am not easily impressed as i have been exposed to greatness and its so simple to achieve that once you are washed over with realization of what that means, exactly you definitely wont be as impressed with bullshit either... there are a number of people and concepts that have come along and take my breath away, but not often... i am an advocate for legalizing marijuana, AIDS and HIV awareness,legalizing Gay Marriage, curing with Natural Medicine, and saving Animals [ as my mom runs an animal rescue].

When i was little i used to go out of town to visit friends or family and people would say things to me like " So if you are from California then you know tons of celebrities, right?" I would always answer with a complicated explanation of how California is a big beautiful place and Hollywood is in Los Angeles and just because I lived there they shouldn't assume I knew famous people it's not even the best part . That did nothing of course because at the time and now I know tons of famous people which apparently is all that's important in my character after people find this out and that is just not right. For a long time I have been ashamed of who I know and what I have done and have had a hard time sharing because the real world and the hollyweird world are like oil and water. I learned this in 2nd grade at my really expensive la private school when I would share my what I did this weekend story with the class and have a story about being on different television sets and having dinner with the likes of Gladys Knight and Rickie Byars.Either my school mates would make fun of me and call me a liar even when i had a pictures and they knew it was true, which was no good because this is all i knew at the time, i was very sensitive i was like 8.I couldn't understand why people would stop being my friend and judge me and tease me and say I was a "Disney kid" which was a bad thing cause all the kids were always jealous of the kids on tv and i didn't want to be in any way associated with them but I was [ even though i was never on disney or famous]. It was then i started to despise Hollywood and it's way of life. Unfortunately even now I go through the same thing. I know now all the flakiness and ass kissing is provided to my existence by jealousy and envy.

So no more being scared of being judged ... I have a great brain and great spirit, I am not a liar and never have a reason to talk shit about someone behind their backs. So if you have a problem with any of the stories or pictures on my blog feel free to email me or comment anytime. I have made the decision to be the magnificent me that I am and SHARE IT!!! That after all is the reason this blog was conceived... so welcome and enjoy my new featurette: My Life. Even Better.

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